Well the cusp of the New Year is upon us. A wise friend once told me that New Year's Eve is a very powerful day to write down your desires, in order to manifest them. Today we are looking at a Blue Moon, making the magical powers ten fold.

On New Year's Eve, I always love to write down some resolutions...however, this year I have decided to jot down a 'grateful' list and a 'looking forward to' list. In addition, it is great to type them down, but handwritten notes are extremely powerful.

Here is my message:

"New Year's Eve: A Blue Moon

The last day of the year is upon us, as I reflect back on the days past...I can only find gratitude within my heart. As much as it was a trying time on some days, it was also a magical time in other ways. What I have learned is that love above all prevails.

Many lessons were learned. With all the surgeries and hospital stays, we learned that our health is precious and delicate. We must honour our bodies as sacred and always treat them as such. We learned that our time together is sacred. We also realized most deeply whom we can count on during these trying times. Those of us who are fortunate to always have the love and support of loved one's through thick and thin. For them, we are always grateful.

We learned that our time together is sacred. We must take the time for each other, love one another and forgive those we love. We must cherish our time together. We never know what tomorrow brings, our time together is a gift.

Family is everything. That lesson will always resonate within our hearts. To those family members who are always with us, in body and spirit. We love you too!

Our friends...we are blessed with such amazing friends. Our time together is always such joy. Sometimes, our friends will disappoint us, like anything else and let us down. However, they too are gifts to us, and we must honour each and everyone of them. Cherish the memories, honour our moments together, appreciate them all. The gift of friendship is not to be forsaken.

This year, we were also gifted new friendships. Within these relationships, beautiful kinship's were formed. That is special. So to new memories, good and bad with new and old...we look forward.

Lastly, we were blessed with many guides and teachers. People who took the time, the effort to support our family, and us. Our years ahead will only bring much more knowledge, memories and victories...for that we are greatful.

To the year ahead...

I look forward to continuing my weight loss journey. I look forward to victories both small and large. I look forward to the journey with Tony as we continue to grow in love and shrink in size. To our new journey and our new found health!

I look forward to being more with my children. To each of them a blessed year ahead awaits us. I am excited for our time together, and our vacations.

This year I am pleased to prosperous changes withing me, Tony, our family and friends. We are blessed to be so loved and cherished.

I look forward to my book: finally being completed and published. I am equally excited for the new doors and opportunities that await me in 2010. I am ready and willing!

In 2010... I am surrounded by love, devotion, joy, peace and serenity. I am financially prosperous. I am abundantly surrounded by good friends and loyal family members. I am gifted with the support of many teachers, guides and masters who assist me on my journey. I welcome 2010 with open arms. I am at my healthiest and happiest!

I will continue to inspire others to live their best, be their best and appreciate all that comes with it.

In 2010...I Kimmy am GLORIOUS!"

All the best to you all in 2010...with gratitude and love always,

Kimmy

Cheers to 2010!

Wishing you all the "Light" of the Holiday Season!

A Week Before Christmas!

The hustle and bustle is here folks! Are you all ready?

I'm here to report that I'm doing okay health wise. My eating may be a tad off...but I'm working-out, doing yoga and still weight training. I had gained a bit of weight, but I'm back down now to 205 lbs. So I'll be starting the New Year focused on the 199 lbs! I'm feeling amazing! I noticed some changes that have me PUMPED. For one, my weights are to light, and it's time to move up! I also noticed that my waist is thinning out. My skin is also much clearer and "glowy" (no, I'm not pregnant!). So I'm surely on the right track. Kudos for still working-out despite the holiday season.

I have left to buy a few more gifts and wrap up the Holidays. I've planned a "Gingerbread Making Holiday Party" for my boys. Hopefully, I'll be able to control myself and not eat any candy.

We also ended up 'accidentally' buying a 'monstrous' Christmas tree...I've added the photo. At first, it seemed like a funny joke, and something we would most likely laugh at in years to come. But, now it has grown on me and I love my Christmas tree!

It took Tony and two other men three hours to set-up. Took me two days to decorate. Not bad, however the Obama's called and wanted their tree back! LOL

Carmelo was home for two days with a sprained ankle. That school must of had enough of us, with the Monday morning rant and then this. However, I'm a little peeved at the fact that his 'accident' happened in the morning, and the poor kid went all day without us having a phone call home to go pick him up. He walked or rather hobbled on one foot all day at school...and by the time he got home, and I removed his boot, his ankle was swollen up to twice it's size. He's a tad better today, and he wanted to go to school to be with his classmates for the final day before Christmas break. He was also excited about giving his teachers their Christmas gifts. So I let him go...with a note to the Teacher if Carmy complains of any pain; call me immediately, I'm more than happy to come pick him up. I also warned Carmelo...any rude comments or remarks from the peanut gallery; as kindly as you can...don't be afraid to defend yourself (like I need to tell him that!)!

So I was busy with that, and then with Diodato and his new found social popularity. Speaking of the President...I've been busier than the CIA trying to approve, and investigate all his latest social gatherings. Phew! I don't know about you...but back in my time, we never had birthday parties at "Bar's and Grills" in a mall. Not at the age of fourteen, anyhow.

I've also started writing a novel. I know sounds 'quirky'. But, I've had this story floating around in my brain for almost five years now. I decided to start putting it all down on paper, or rather computer, just so I can stop thinking about the plot...and what happens next etc...

Who knows...when you love to write and write as much as I do...who knows. I may get brave enough and post the prologue or something on here in the new year.

That's about all for today. Be well everyone...lot's of love and blessings. Thanks for stopping by to read my blog.

Kimmy

Dr. Oz's 5 Secrets of "Waist Loss"

By Mehmet Oz, MD
Courtesy of Oprah.com

A great read! We all need 'gentle' reminders, especially this time of the year.

http://www.oprah.com/article/health/wellnessandprevention/pkgozbeauty/201001-omag-dr-oz-weight-loss

Monday Rant!

Bah Humbug to crusty school secretaries!!!!!!

My son was 5 minutes late for school today, so obviously I had to run in and sign him in.

"Carmelo, you are lucky Mrs. ! is not here right now, otherwise she'd give you a detention for being late."

(I was stunned. The nerve to say this in front of me.) She was very rude about it, also...

I almost said: "...if you want to give a detention, give it to me because I'm the reason he's late!!!!"
Instead, because I'm a nice person, I said: "...things happen, it's life..."

To which she replied: "...but you have to be on time, and if it becomes a pattern come the New Year...detentions will be handed out".
I almost want to be passive aggressive and make him late on purpose; try and give him a 'detention' for being late...he's only in GRADE THREE!!!!! What is this world coming to?

I walked out, and wished my son a great day with a wink!

ARGH!!!! A detention for being late! I really should of said: "SCREW You lady! Not that it's any of your damn business...but you are just lucky that he is here only FIVE minutes late with a lunch, his homework done and dressed!!!!!!"

No Christmas gift for her!!!!!

Have a great Tuesday everyone,
Kimmy

A Little Bit of This, That and Inspiration

It's a cold and stormy day here in Ottawa. Looking out my office window and onto the street all I can see is white, white and more white. We've already received about 10 cm of snow and we are expecting another 20 cm throughout the day. Winter is finally here!



I opted not to go to Yoga today because of the road conditions. However, my friend and I decided to go to the gym instead as the gym is very close. Wow, somethings surely have changed with me. LOL In the past, I would of taken this opportunity to hibernate. The excuse would have been a piece of cake, pardon the pun. "Everyone is home, and the roads are bad"...easy. I will take this victory in my new attitude, even though I loathe working-out. I love what it does to my entire being.



On another note, loved watching The Biggest Loser season finale last night. I was so happy to see Rebecca take the at home prize, and elated for Danny winning it all! Rudy did Rebecca a favour when he back stabbed her and sent her home, feeling she was his strongest competition for the title. Everyone (even I) underestimated Danny. I mean, we were all so focused on Rudy's incredible numbers on the scale, Tracey's whining and Liz's southern accent that we all but forgot about the underdog! Highlights last night were Abby who looked amazing as well as Antoine and Julio. Vavoom. Shay's incredible journey thus far brought tears to my eyes. Oh, and Amanda!!! She looked absolutely perfect. Loved her victory at wearing her very first dress since she was a little girl! Love, loved that!



However, what I don't like about this show is how contestants get so ghastly thin for the finale. Rebecca and Tracey most notably in this category. Not that I am not happy for Rebecca taking the victory away from Tracy...that was the best moment after all the cruel things Tracey did to everyone. Nonetheless, there should be rules protecting the contestants from losing too much below their recommended BMI's. Rebecca and Tracey are way to thin in my book. Rebecca has lost all her charm and cute little face...and will someone please tell her that she's a gorgeous brunette, blond just doesn't suit her.



All in all, I was elated with last night's results. The most deserving contestant's won this season as opposed to Helen's win last season. (Still can't get over the fact that she chose to send her own daughter home...so she could stay on the Ranch! Tara deserved to win last season...hands down!) I am most happy to see that Rudy did not win. I believe he played the game the entire time and stayed under the radar. Danny worked hard and kept his integrity at the same time. A well deserved win and inspiration.



Another amazing inspirational story is that of a fellow blogger Joania. Read all about her incredible journey:
http://www.ottawacitizen.com/health/journey+almost/2318975/story.html

That's it, that's all for today.
Be well!

Namaste,
Kimmy

Tweaks That Make a Difference

Great advice that makes a difference courtesy of Oprah.com

http://www.oprah.com/article/health/weightloss/200809_omag_katz_eating_better

Follow-up to Stepping out of the Box

I hope this finds everyone happy and well on this first day of December. Last month of the year already, time flies.

With all the happenings last week, I forgot to come back and report my 'Stepping out of the Box' experience.

Let me just say it was AWESOME and HOT!

I decided to go to Hot Power Yoga. I was extremely nervous. First of all, I am not very flexible. I do yoga very awkwardly. Not only do I look weird, I feel weird. I am also not coordinated in any way. I am clumsy...clumsy...clumsy. So being graceful, controlled and aesthetic for yoga is never going to happen for me. Nevertheless, I know that Yoga is excellent for total body wellness.

I tried doing it at home, on my own. It's just not the same. Plus, with three kids in the house and a very busy household...never any peace.

So, after much passive aggressiveness, protestation, and refutal, I decided to take the plunge. I believe it was Bob Harper who said that in order for one to change their habits, you must step out of the box. Get out of the everyday comfort zone and do something you've always wanted to do. In order to reach your goals, you must find that courage and determination to get you there.

I always aspired to be one of those fit girls. Ya, know the type. She wears all Lulu lemon clothes, and they fit her body magically. She makes the work-out gear look like formal wear the way it shapes her body. Her hair is perfectly brushed in a beautiful ponytail. Her work-out gear is neat, organized and matches. Just the way she sits on the mat, in peace...you know she's good. She's a Yoga Sensei. Her body moves effortlessly from pose to pose. She looks model perfect in every pose, smiling throughout the entire session. Anyhow, I always wished to emulate such a type when "I would be thin and fit myself'.

So thus I decided, "why wait until I'm thinner and fit"? Yoga will help me reach those goals.
I took that leap of faith, and did it. Yes, I was nervous and awkward...But, I finished. What a feeling! I cannot tell you how glorious it felt when we we were all done, and I hadn't fallen on my butt or made some burst out laughing at my attempts. I may not have looked all picture perfect (aside from maybe corpse pose!), but I did feel so free and loose afterwards. Oh! and staying at the VERY back of the class helps too! :>

I have to agree with Bob. Stepping out of the box is essential to reaching those goals. Proving to ourselves that we can do it; today. Sure being in the box makes us feel safe and secure. It gives us the excuse 'not to do it'. The box keeps us stuck. It keeps us stagnate, and holds us back from moving forth on our journey. Taking the courage and determination to make that first step gives us the power back. It shows us that we are strong, and we can do this. It opens the door to so many other experiences that await us....one step at a time.

I may not be perfectly yogalicious...but I am working on it!

Namaste,
Kimmy

Bigger Issues on the Horizon

In regards to my post below, seems I have bigger, lingering issues on the horizon. The following is my conversation with Carmelo (my 8 year old son).

Carmelo: " Mom, Gabriella has a cute car. Eh?"

Me: "Sure, she does Carmy!
(taking the opportunity to instill what I had just finished posting)
Gabriella works hard, and she gets good grades. You work hard too, and when you're sixteen you can have a cute car like her!"

Carmelo: (not missing a beat, and with a tone of insult in his voice)

- "Oh, ya, I'm going to work hard alright...but not for a freakin' Toyota! It's a Lamborghini or nothing for me! Remember I'm going to be rich and when I'm sixteen...I'll be driving that Lambo!"

Who am I to be a dream killer?! I just can't win....LOL

The Teenage Wonder Years and the I-Touch Generation

This is a long post, much longer than I anticipated...I got long winded on the subject. I guess I was over due to blog about this.

Back in my day ( I can't even believe I'm blogging like this...LOL), Back in my day, my parents were never around. In elementary school, they never bothered to even check if I had homework. If I had a spelling test, a dictée, a presentation, a report or any test for that matter, I would take it upon myself to prepare for it. Only in grade 7, do I remember not doing my science fair project. I wanted to test my mother...to see if she would care. Nada. I ended up in the ER the night before, overly sick from anxiety because I hadn't done my science fair project. My mother defended my cause to the principal, but never said another word to me. That was my lowest mark ever: a 60 in science that term. I am still to this day, disappointed in myself.

I never had nice school clothes. Designer for me, meant anything other than from K-Mart. Luxury items...were a pizza lunch out with my friends, a winter coat and a good pair of winter boots. I got my haircut once a year, if that.

My parents never attended parent teacher interviews, or anything to do with my school for that matter. In my school, our report cards were picked up during the evening so the teachers would get an opportunity to discuss issues with the parents. My report card was always on my desk the next morning, waiting for me. Always! My mom was never anxiously waiting at the door for me after school; "how was school?" I could of quit and my mother would of found out once the principal had gotten a hold of her.

When high school rolled around, it was pretty much the same. I was on my own. Regardless, I was still an 'A' student. I knew that education was power. I did my homework, studied and always did my best to get a good mark. I attended school without missing classes. The only time I remember skipping class was in Mrs. Fleury's Drama class when my friend Sylvie McCrea had this wonderful idea to skip class and go to the "caf." for some chocolate (hey...who could resist that?! ha ha ha). That was my first 'jail' ever and only one. I knew better. This was not the path I wished to take.

Moreover, when the group of kids I was hanging-out with, thwarted on a different path, I made new friends. Don't get me wrong. I socialized, I partied, I drank and I even tried smoking. I never tried drugs because that is where I drew the line, it was not the path that would lead me to my vision.

I had to get an after-school job as soon as I was fourteen. In order to pay for my own clothes, and school stuff. I worked everyday as much as I could.

I was high school valedictorian. My parents felt obliged (my mom anyhow) to come to my graduation. I received many scholarships for University. My first year was practically paid. I had a part-time job working cashier at the same grocery store that my mom had worked at for most of her life. When I told her I was going to quit my job in order to go to University, she was stunned. "Why would you go to University, when you have a secure job as a cashier?"

I went to University. I was an honour student.

As a mother, I vowed that I would support my children throughout their lives. I attend every school function. I have attended every parent-teacher interview there was. I volunteer for the schools. I always greet my kids with "how was your school day?" "Any homework?". I am always there to help and support. I drive them to all their extra curricular activities, and I am interested enough to stay and watch.

Our children today live in the lap of luxury. Too much. My fourteen year old son's room is huge. For starters, he has a King size bed. His room comes with a cathedral ceiling, walk-in closet, ensuite bath, computer with Internet service, television, DVD system and PlayStation 3. We could probably rent out his room for $ 150 a night! He has a cell phone, and an I-touch. He has owned three generation i-pods that are now null and void, in his mind. Whatever new gadget comes out...it's a must on his wish list. At his tender age, he has already rode a Lamborghini and a Ferrari. The life of teenagers today!

There is a fine line between spoiling your kids and loving them. There is a fine line between right and wrong. Most every parent wants nothing but the best for their children. However, what is best? Certainly not the path that these kids are going down. We are not doing them any favours. Trust me. We are actually doing the opposite and ruining the next generation. Kids today have to much, to soon. They have lost all concept of anything. The Internet, the material world...has changed everything. I have come to realize that my kids do not need 'Gucci', 'Rolex', 'Ed Hardy' etc...nice things are nice, but there needs to be a bold line drawn. My boy doesn't need $150 + jeans. They don't teach him nothing. They won't teach him the value, morals and determination one needs to succeed and live a good life.

One need only look at the teens of Hollywood to understand this concept. Our adolescence are raging with these designer duds, doing things and experiencing things that only queens and kings of our past have. The kids of today experience way too much, long before they have matured the concept of appreciation and significance. Think about it...these kids who live in a world of pedicures, manicures, fake boobs, botox, and designer duds without any concept of work, will be leading our planet very soon. That is scary! Our kids are in crisis mode. The only thing they equate to happiness is a material item...the newest, shiniest most expensive item. Have we lost our marbles? We need to let kids be kids. Moreover, let's not even touch the subject of teens, sex and drugs. They are however all linked. The easy, crazy life.

I once had the brilliant idea of paying Diodato to do chores around the house. After all, it would be good for him to earn his own money, and learn the value of a good dollar. It worked really well until my hubby got involved. He offered to pay him one hundred bucks ($100!) to shovel the driveway. WHAT?! Insane!

So I changed the course of that. Diodato and Carmelo now do chores around the house because they are part of the family, and that's what we do...we take care of our familial home. At first, I was met with alot of 'ah... this sucks...' etc....Now, they just do it. Diodato is in charge of garbage, and garbage day. He is in charge of bringing-up the folded laundry for me, setting the table and some days emptying the dishwasher. Carmelo is in charge of shoes at the door, toys lying around, setting the table and helping to clear the table after dinner.

I have found that they have a greater appreciation of our home, and the work that needs to be done to be proud of our family. I also have cut back on gifts and buying such. In the past, I would rush out and buy them the newest game counsel, their favourite game and all the attachments for example. Their Christmas list could be a mile long. Now, we always wait for a special occasion like birthdays, great report cards and such to purchase any gift. Moreover, if they want something extra, they must earn it by doing extra chores around the home, and I don't pay a hundred dollars either! At Christmas, their list are down to three items, and if they wish to ask Santa for a big item, than only one thing is to be asked.

My boys are good boys. Diodato is heading into his 'rough' years of adolescence. He is fourteen now. He is a good kid, with a great heart. That is something that has not changed, thankfully over the years. Every teacher who has ever taught him, has fallen in love with him.

Last night we attended parent-teacher interviews. Diodato aspires to become an engineer. Something, we strongly support him with. He is intelligent, however not driven. Motivation and lack thereof has always been an issue for him. The easy way...always. Who can blame him? It's been his way of life all along. Easy, simple and anything he wants at his finger tips.

He once told me during one of my 'this is what it was like for me' speeches that he was going to go into hairdressing and work for the family's business'. My hubby and his family have surely been successful, and we graciously reap the rewards of that. Nevertheless, it is not an option for him. University first...then you will have the family's business to fall back on.

Another time, he announced that he would take a year off after Grade 12 to weigh out his options! Um mm...what options? Another easy way out, certainly!

His grades are pretty good. He is a B student. But, not to his full potential, which is greatly frustrating and disappointing as a parent. Watching your kid throw away opportunity is not easy. For us, as parents, we have done all that we can. We are here to help him with his homework (his school bag has been empty for most of the semester! EMPTY!!!), help him prepare for oral presentations, tests etc...Maybe that is the issue.

So last night, after much pondering, we sat down and had a discussion with him. We went over the usual:
"...we never had it so easy....our parents never cared...blah blah blah. Nonetheless, we then turned a different root:

He is responsible for his grades, and everything else. We won't badger him for getting an 83% in Math IF we see him doing work and trying his best. Nevertheless, we will badger and take action accordingly when he gets an 83% with no effort, because his potential is thrown away. The consequences? We will begin taking away his privileges, starting with the computer than the TV, the I-touch and go down the list accordingly. We came upon an agreement of such.

We can talk until we're blue in the face about the insignificance of the "I-Touch" generation, and all the luxury that comes with it. In the end, I just have to back my words and beliefs with action. Somewhere, somehow we must find the middle ground. The perfect balance between loving our children, spoiling them slightly all the while teaching them the grounds to turn them into amazing, successful adults. These days the task is getting more and more difficult. Our last resort will be tough love...and we just will have to pretend to no longer care.

A Lesson Learned...and an Apology

Upon further reflection...
Perhaps, it is time for me "to take a good look in the mirror"!

I am a firm believer in the power of the universe, and lessons learned upon a journey. I also know that sometimes, we must take ownership, and own what we create. This shows us and the world who we truly are. Running, is only for cowards.

Recently, I blogged about my experiences working-out as an unfit, overweight girl. Let me firmly point out, that not long ago...I was on the other side of the fence; a fit, thin girl. So am blogging as someone who has a perspective on both sides of the coin, so to speak.

Nonetheless, perhaps I jumped to quick to judgement and reflected my own feelings, or 'insecurities' as someone pointed out to me. With all do respect, yes I do have alot of issues in that department. I am very frustrated with my body because I am no longer the fit person I used to be. I let myself go way beyond.

Whenever I work-out now, my recent hernia surgery is ALWAYS at the back of my mind. I can clearly hear the words of a woman I encountered who was complaining of her hernia: "good luck to you sweetie...I've had the surgery four times. It doesn't work, and be careful not to pop out again!" Great?! The last thing I want is to go through that again!

As well, my body is failing me on other accounts too. My accelerated heart rate, my low vitamin D deficiency that just won't go away no matter how much vitamin D I consume. Recently, my fall and my injured tail bone. Equally, I cannot be the stubborn girl that is bursting within me. I must control myself, and take it easy.

However, this post is not about my 'truths' and my "insecurity reflecting because YOU feel like you're overweight and unfit."

All this to say...that I wish I was "Fit Queen". As I previously blogged, I aspire to be people like them. The way they flow, and make working-out look so effortlessly easy. The way they are so in shape, and their body responds with strength and agility. It is wondrous! Perhaps, my Anonymous commentator was too quick to judge my post, and missed that part?

Regardless, I realize I made a quick assumption and for that I apologize. I stepped out of line. I am eating crow (hopefully, it's not to high in calories and fat! ha ha ha), and should know better. I am not a mean spirited person, and meant no ill will at all in my post.

I have chosen NOT to publish the comment under my Love and Support wall. At the end of the day, I want to hold on to the positive: Love and Support!

Winston Churchhill once said: “All men make mistakes, but only wise men learn from their mistakes.”

Namaste,
Kimmy

Please Come Back Soon...

I'm blogging something important, but have to run do to motherly duties...

Namaste,
Kim

I'm a Fighter!

Yesterday, while weight training I had a minor set back. I fell off my exercise ball right onto my tailbone. I injured myself severely. I actually started to cry. What a pain!!

(My three year old, saddistic Antonio thought it was hiliarious!)

Anyhow, I'm quite soar today. Pah! This isn't going to stop me from working out and reaching my goals.

I took the boys for some Starbucks today after Carmy's soccer, and walked by Sport Check and there it was: my perfect new work-out tee. I just had to have it!

:> (I'm off to break-in sweat my new tee thanks to advil...and some stubborness.)

On this journey, whatever works!

Mantra of the Day

"When you work-out don't do it because you 'have to', do it because you want to!"

Thank God It's Friday Update

Oprah!!!! Is ending her show?! Holy! I have basically a year and a half to get on there. Otherwise, my psychics' prediction won't come true!? (Sounds ludicrous, I know...but more than one person has told me this...so one can dream, eh?!) I'm not worried though. Apparently, Oprah is ending her show, to start up some stuff on her OWN network. Ah...we'll leave it with the Universe and see what happens.


Speaking of the Universe and freaky stuff. It has been a year to date since I last worked out with my ex-trainer Lene at Goodlife. So this week last year was the last I trained with her, when I found out I had a hernia. The other day, I went to the gym and noticed Lene's photo off the 'trainer wall'.

Lene has recently quit Goodlife and started working at a private gym, here in my neighbourhood (fancy that!). I contacted her and discovered that she is giving exercise classes at the private gym.

I'm in! The time, the day, the location and the price is perfect. The creepy thing is....we will continue our journey working together: one year to the date where we left off! Plus, I am at the exact weight I was a year ago. Most notably, I'm in a much better place emotionally and mentally than last year at this time. Life can be beautifully strange

I'm hoping this will shake things up for me. My weight is really stuck. I'm trying hard not to get discouraged. Furthermore, I'm working out extra hard in order to budge the scale before I get depressed and disheartened. I've added this core exercise class, and the Hot Power Yoga on Wednesday's to shake my body up. I've also added five minutes to my cardio. Tony and I have also taken a few walks at night. There's nothing else I can do...but work hard and wait for my body to let go of that fat!

I received an email from my friend yesterday regarding a recent post I made: "I'm heading to Hot Power Yoga....wish me luck...the chubby, uncoordinated, inflexible girl is doing something she would only do as a skinny girl! "

" Kimmy if you speak that way about yourself, the universe is listening...and you will always be the 'chubby, undoordinated, inflexible girl'. You of all people should know this?! I don't need to preach to you about this, as you are the one who taught it to me. However, like any good teacher...you need a gentle reminder too. Change your thoughts, change your journey and change your life!"

She is right! The mind is a powerful tool, and the Universe is always listening. So I leave you on this great Friday, wishing you all a wonderful week-end. This healthy, beautiful, fit girl has got to go work-out! ;>

Kimmy

Stepping out of the Box

I'm getting ready to STEP OUT OF THE BOX!

I'm heading to Hot Power Yoga....wish me luck...the chubby, uncoordinated, inflexible girl is doing something she would only do as a skinny girl!

Stepping out of the Box

I've had time to reflect and think. I've gotten a few answers to my trainer's questions.

Reflecting, and getting stronger is really part of this journey too. Trying to balance parenting, a relationship, housework, school work and life is all part of it. Waiting for a better day to work-out, eat better is not going to happen. Learning to balance everything is key. I know I've said this before; however it is the key.

I also know that in order to have success, I must act like I am successful already. In other words, saying to myself; 'oh, when I am thin...I will run a 5k, I will go to yoga etc...' Kim! It's not going to happen if I don't do it now. Now is the time...Again, athletes think and act like athletes long before they reach their goals. Business people dress for success long before they reach the top. I clued in that us on a healthier lifestyle journey must do the same.

What does that mean for me? First of all, no more binging! On Sunday, I had an opportunity to binge (as Sunday is usually my day of rest, and treat). However, this Sunday I did a 45 minute (hard) cardio session. If I wanted to treat myself that night....working-out was a must. It completely worked in my favour.

1. I didn't eat as much
2. I made wiser 'treat' choices

In addition, I have come to realize that in order to be successful in this healthier lifestyle journey. You must do it for yourself. I realized that when I had reached my goal weight both times in the past, I did it for others. Eventually, piled the weight back on.

The first time as a teenager. My mother had promised me an entire new wardrobe if I could lose weight. I lost 80 lbs and won a prestigious award through TOPS (Taking Off Pounds Sensibly). I was the talk of my town. Everyone was so proud of me. Nonetheless, my Mom never came through on her promise. As you can imagine being a teenager, it's all about the clothes. Finally, for the first time in my life I could wear clothes that not only looked good, but fit good. I remember floating in my clothes. I ended up getting an after school job making pizza's for $ 4.00 an hour, saved and saved and bought some clothes. The biggest disappointment was the fact that I knew my mother had the money.

The second weight loss story, I've told many times on this blog. I lost over one hundred pounds, looked my best ever, only to have my hubby have an affair on me. The biggest betrayal of my life. To add fuel to the fire, the girl was not even good looking, or a 'good' person. However, my marriage is stronger than ever...and I look at this time as a blessing. We both learned valuable lessons from this time. My only one left: I can be healthy and fit and my hubby will still love me!

Anyhow, all this to babble about finding my truths. I've been watching allot of 'weight loss' programs these days. It was something Bob Harper (The Biggest Loser) said that really struck a nerve with me. He said something along the lines that if you want to really conquer your weight loss goals (because according to Dr. Oz only 5 % of those who attempt a weight loss journey actually succeed), you MUST STEP OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE. YOU MUST STEP OUT OF THE BOX.

That is a biggie for me! I know I have to do it. Tomorrow...I am stepping out of my box. I am going to attend a Hot Power Yoga. Now for me that is HUGE! First of all, I'm the most inflexible human on earth. Secondly, balance and coordination are not my strong suit. Lastly, I am still big. Walking into a class full of 'Yoga lites' is not something I look forward too. One must do, what one must do. Attempting to do Yoga at home, is not working for me. So I must step out of the box.

Stepping out of the Box means living my truth!

Thinking...

Just wanted to come here today and quickly blog. I have an exam tonight, so I have to go study.

I stepped on the scale this morning, and it's not good. I'm stuck. It has been fluctuating between 204-208 lbs. Notice the 4 lbs? If the 4lbs would go in the other direction: I'd be at the 200 lb! The mind is a powerful tool. My brain is keeping me in the 200's. Perhaps even my heart.

Thank you for your kind words Kimberley and Joania. You are both right...I can do this! I am grateful for your love and support. I'm feeling all sorts of emotions, perhaps the stress of my exam is clouding my thoughts right now. So before I go further, I'll be back in a few days with clear intentions.

Rob Lagana sent me a message:
"What's your fear ? Tell yourself the truth and when you do, ask yourself if that's the truth, then tell yourself the truth again. Remember how your body felt, just before you wanted to eat those foods. What did you feel ? Sadness, Anger, Anxiety... I know it's not a good feeling that you felt, because those foods don't promote wellness. Think about how you truly felt, and don't dismiss it, conquer it with LOVE.You deserve it !"

Usually, I have the answer for everything. I don't have an answer for that...I really need to think about it. Because the first thing that came to my mind was:
JUNK FOOD SUNDAY!!!! GET IT ALL IN>>>MONDAY IS IN TWO HOURS! :)

Surely, not the answer I'm looking for. More importantly, that's the attitude that got me in this mess in the first place! On a serious note, the numbers on the scale don't lie, and that is not funny!

Going to think...and think this through. I'll be back....

Kimmy

A Mental Block and a Strategy

So I'm heading to the 100's and I'm facing a mental block, I can feel it. After all, it will be the first time in 4 years, I'm back in the 100's. The big thing is that the last time I was in the 100's, and started to look good again for the first time in my life, my hubby lost interest in me and our marriage went downhill. So this is a BIGGIE for me.

I'm trying to assert myself that I can have the best of both worlds; be thin, healthy and my hubby!

My hubby and I have talked it over immensely since this is a mental issue of mine (most likely one of the reason's I packed back the weight on). We've resolved those issues, at least he did. It's still weighs (pardon the pun) heavily on my heart and at the back of my mind.

I'll be totally honest with you all. Yesterday, I had an amazing day (day!). I did weight training and cardio. Eating was right on. I also went for a long walk with my dear walking buddy Carolyn. However, once I got home...I just went on a binge. Binge? I ate

• nibs (a lot)
• chocolate (a lot)
• chips
• popcorn
• cola

Why? Why do I do this to myself? I felt sick just typing that...

The 100's are around the corner. I know it. Nonetheless, I'm going to beat this. I want to be healthier and I AM going to be in the 100's so I can wear my rings again, and fit into pretty clothes, and just plain feel better.

I surrounded myself with a team of experts today. I joined Dr. Oz's, Jillian Michaels, Bob Harper, and Bob Green on Facebook and Twitter. I have to stay on track! No more sabotage!

Have a great week!
Kimmy

The Power of Healthy Eating

Back from my physician's with powerful information.

Back in May, my family doctor had informed me that my cholesterol levels were high. Normally, she would prescribe something as she was alarmed. I was morbidly obese. My blood pressure was high and so was my heart rate.

Here were my cholesterol levels:

CHOL (Total Cholesterol)

5.19 and lower is good 6.14

TG (Triglycerides--another form of fat in your blood )

2.29 and lower is good 3.83

HDL (good) cholesterol--helps keep cholesterol from building up in the arteries )

1.3 - 99999 is good .90


My blood pressure was also high as well as my heart rate.

Also, my LDL goal (% risk for heart disease) was HIGH. People in this category usually suffer a heart attack or stroke within 10 years!!! I am only 36 years old...that was reality in the face!

So I hooked up with Rob Lagana and made some serious lifestyle changes. I also met with Bruce Bonner and further made more improvements in my diet.

Here are today's results only after changing my lifestyle for six months: NO MEDS!

May 11 November 6

CHOL

6.14 (High)

5.00 (Perfect!)

TG

3.83 (High)

1.21 (Perfect!)

HDL

.90 (Low, not good as this is the good cholesterol)

1.3 (Perfect!)

My risk target went from High to LOW! Amazing!

On the other hand, my blood pressure and heart rate were still on the high side. I know that the cause of it, is my anxiety levels and all that is going on in my house. It's always busy here and I stress myself out over having the perfect clean home, the nice dinner on the table, spending time with my kids, taking them to their activities, working-out, training, spending time with my husband, doing my school work etc...the constant to and fro of friends and visitor's at the door. It's getting to be to much for me and my body is telling me something.

Here is a sample of what I do to myself...it is now 3 pm.

• I have one more bed to make
• a bathroom to tidy
• another load of laundry to do
• dishwasher to empty
• lunch for myself
• pick-up Carmy at 4:30
• Banking
• Grocery store (for dinner)
• A school assignment to work on
• Cardio
• Weight Training
• Dinner
• Clean-up

That is IF I have no interruptions.

Nonetheless, focus on the positive! I got an A+ from my physician today, and if it wasn't for H1N1 she said she would have given me a HIGH-FIVE! LOL

All this to show you the amazing power of healthy eating! You can change anything...just set your mind to it!

Breaking News!

5 x

(5 lbs of Fat)

=

- 25 lbs!!!!

I took a peek at the scale today. I'm so happy I did. What a day to do it on: Happy Anniversary to us! (I'm having wine and Fratelli's tonight! :>)

So as I said before I was on the cusp of a major milestone breakthrough. I am there! 205 lbs is a major turning point for me.

• 
  
  In 2003-2004, I lost over a 100 lbs and reached my goal weight of 150 lbs. In the midst of a turmoiling year to say the least, I began the journey of gaining it back. When things settled in my life, I found myself at about 165-170 lbs. I was training with a new trainer, and when he made the moves on me...I quit. (I was never used to getting attention from men.) Then my hubby and I got back on the right track, and I began fertility treatment to try for our third child (after having lost one). As anyone who has ever done hormone treatment: weight gain is inevitable. I packed on some more weight...but I didn't care as my goal was to have another child. I got pregnant.


• 
  
  However, reality hit me when I stepped on the scale at the ob/gyn's office. I was four months pregnant and the scale read: 206 lbs! I was devastated. I was back in the 200's officially. I had mixed emotions as my pregnancy had had a few road bumps, and the baby's life was in jeopardy. So I closed my eyes, thanked God for my healthy baby and vowed to turn the page once again.

• One year after the birth of my miracle baby Antonio, I set on the weight loss journey again. I had gained all of my weight back. It took me about a year and I was down to 205 lbs. I was in the groove, losing it slowly and working-out with a new trainer consistently. I had organized my time, and was on a new path. Then my huge cyst on my ovary came, then my hernia. It was November 2008; http://alightway.blogspot.com/2008/11/another-hurdle-on-my-journey.html. I had no choice but to stop working-out. I weighed 205 lbs - 207 lbs. Everything stopped. Lost, and frustrated...I piled back the weight on.

It has taken me an entire year, to get back to this point. I had surgery in May, and my recovery was very slow and painful. Nonetheless, lying on that couch with nothing to do but think, I envisioned finding myself back to 205 lbs and continuing the journey where I had left off.

I am here!!!!

Cheers!

Week 19!

Great News!

I am down another pound! I'm a little nervous because I'm on the brink of turning a corner and reaching a major milestone for me. However, I'm excited in the weeks to come to share it with you all. I won't breathe another word of it, until it happens.

Kim: - 1 lb

Total: -23 lbs

Tony:

Now, for the sake of anything. Tony is not happy that all his progress is being reported on my blog. LOL He's not so much on the inspiration page as I am. So...shh... (in other words, don't tell him you read it on here!...a little bird told ya!)

Tony has now lost a total of:

*huge drum roll

*Another 5 lbs gone!

Total weight loss:

- 51 lbs

So very proud of him. The thing with Tony, he is doing it all by watching what he eats and making sure he has his breakfast in the morning. Amazing what eating healthy and clean does.

H1N1 Vent

Okay, so all over the news...it 's mass panic. Get your shot, these are the symptoms, take precautions, be prepared etc... etc.. etc...

I have been debating on and off whether to vaccinate my kids or not. As of right now, I'm a BIG NO!

• this vaccination has not been tested. Who's to say in a year from now there is not any complications due to the ingredients of the vaccination
• the rush into production, get it out there
• I keep thinking isn't the human body better off fighting this thing and the immune system learning to cope? Remember the penicillin backlash?
• In Canada, the vaccine has adjuvant, mercury. Maybe it has the same amount equal to a can of tuna. But, am I not injecting that into my three year old's vein?

One minute, I am "YES"...the next "NO". There is no guarantee the vaccination will even work. Why? They don't know. It hasn't been tested. Those who are getting vaccinated now; are the guinea pigs.

If this H1N1 could get any more ridiculous, it does. So my son Carmelo has been fighting a viscous cough. Like anything else, I don't believe in sending my children to school sick. I loathe those perfect attendance awards. Don't come and tell me that no child ever gets sick!? Disease is spread by contact with others. If people kept their kids home when they were sick: less chance of others getting it, and disease spreading, in my humble opinion.

Back to Carmelo. This morning he woke-up with every symptom of H1N1. Headache, vomiting, fever, lethargic (the kid peed on the bathroom floor because he thought he was at the toilet!). Of course, with all the mass panic going around. We all panicked!

We called tele-health. Do to the overwhelming flood of calls, a nurse will return my call in: 8 hours. Unbelievable.

I called the school to inquire about the absenteeism rate. They could not disclose that information to me. Just know, it is high. Any confirmed cases of H1N1? Can't disclose that either. Great! Be sure to print off 800+ letters though letting us all know there's a case of head lice in the school!!!!!

I called the pediatrician's office. Apparently, we are to treat it like any other flu. There is no swabbing, or tests to be done. Assume, it's just a flu. If he's symptoms get worse...bring him to CHEO (our ER). "What do you mean get worse?" If he has trouble breathing, or his hands and lips start to turn blue. If he's fever get's higher than 104. Thanks.

The government and health officials have been preparing for this flu pandemic since the spring...with their advertising and hand-outs. Telling us to 'be prepared'. You aren't even prepared to test those who have all the symptoms in the first place to confirm the H1N1. But, you are telling me to be prepared?! Then, when we are 'confirming' ourselves through symptoms, you then advise me to treat it like a regular 'flu'.????

Unbelievable.

Make Time Your Friend

Great article that I had to share on complete body balance.
psst...it promises less wrinkles and no need for botox :>

http://www.oprah.com/article/spirit/emotionalhealth/20091021-orig-best-aging-secret

Humbled I am

One of my new favourite sayings, "Like everything else, when you ask...the Universe comes a running. The universe will knock and knock at your door, the universe will ring the door bell and finally if nobody answers, the universe will break the door down. It's best to answer on the first knock."

The other day, I blogged about my foul mood as of late. The other night my neighbour came for tea. I told her how I'd been feeling lately. She too had been feeling out of sorts. The change of season really brings out the worst in all of us. However, being the wise soul she is, she quickly retorted with, 'but we are healthy, our children are too, our husband's love us...we have so much to appreciate...we must focus only on that." With that she continued...the story and I am somewhat ashamed of my pompous behaviour.

A woman we know through neighbours and family is a breast cancer survivor. She is single (her hubby left her for her best friend) and has three children. She now stays at home and babysits her grandchild. She hasn't been feeling well lately. She recently found out her cancer has returned. Her chances of survival, are not very good and her doctor has advised her to get all her affairs in order. Surgery is the best option, and if successful chemo will follow. That is a big IF due to the location of the tumour. With all this, she has asked that her surgery be postponed until after Christmas so that she can spend this time with her loved ones. The doctors agreed, surgery is booked for January 1.

She used to have it 'all', beautiful home, jewelry, fancy cars, and a house full of friends all the time. Then something changed, she got sick and the lifestyle changed. It all tumbled so quickly, even the 'friends' can hardly spare a 'hello' when they run into each other. She boasts today, that it was an illusion. Material items do not bring happiness. It is not what matters in life. Do not be fooled. All that can be gone in an instant. It is who you are and what you stand for that is lasting. A lesson she has learned well. Appreciate what you have, and don't take it for granted. She now truly appreciates what life is really about.

Throughout it all, she continues to cook for her boy's soccer team, and is at every game to cheer them on. She takes her daughter shopping. Always a smile on her face, a kiss and a warm hug to greet you. She spends her days, with her children, and grandchild. She no longer worries about cleaning, laundry, having her nails done and her hair perfect etc...instead she focuses on being, and spending as much quality time as she can.

Something we can all learn from her. That my friends is strength! This woman emanates courage and love. What an inspiration she is. I bow to her, and pray for her to beat this. Miracles do happen.

I am humbled...no more complaining for me. Life is too precious to be sitting around being angry, bitter and resentful. We must live each day to the fullest, happily with gratitude. We never know what life has to offer us, however if today was my last day, tomorrow I would regret not having lived it with joy.

I'm off to go pick-up Diodato from school as he just finished running his first 5k (So proud of you buddy! You beat Mommy to it! ...however I'll challenge his time of 41 minutes.) Then, I'm coming home to colour and read with Antonio before he is off to Oxford.

Humbled I am,

Kimmy

Blowing-off Steam with the Shift.

Last week, I blogged about my encounter with Bruce Bonner. How my body scan showed intense levels of stress. Especially from my heart, heart chakra and emotional state. Be it, I am an emotional person. There is lot's of resentment hiding behind my gracious smile and sweet green eyes.

After pondering my scan, I realized that I am a moment away from losing my cool. I have zero patience with my children. My hubby gets snappy answers. I answer the phone like it is a mortal enemy disturbing my peace on the other line. In addition, I am a moments away from crossing the line with some who have been deserving some medicine of their own. I am short of breath. My skin is red like my energy. My eyes are throwing daggers. My body, my mind and my spirit has reached a boiling point.

You see, I have a major pet peeve with 'injustices' and 'unfairness'. I cringe at people who have superiority complexes. Sometimes, I want to just go over there and knock them down to ground level. We are all after all equals, nobody is better or above anyone. I don't understand how someone could laugh at another one's misfortune. How some feel it is okay to mistreat others or even how they treat my children. I seem to be on some type of spiritual high horse, and for that I apologize. I'm trying my best to control myself. Seems like I am being tested to and forth. I've really had enough!

I always try to take the high road. It's embedded in my spirit. I always try to stay on the side that karma will take care of things. I always listen to our brother Jesus who taught us all to turn the other cheek. The glass for me is always more than half full anyhow.

With every pound I am losing (AGAIN!), I am uncovering some deep emotional wounds. I realize more and more that as we grow older, we really start to weed out the 'good' and the 'bad' people in our lives. Most people come into our lives to help us grow along our journey. But, why do people have to torture you along the way? What is it with that?!

Why are people so mean and vindictive? Why are some some evil? Why are some people so selfish and egocentric? I just don't get it! Someone once told me that what you see in people is usually what you don't see in yourself. I disagree with my entire being and soul!

So when Bruce walked me through my scan, I had a huge 'AHA' moment. There staring me in the face were my issues, embedded deep within my body and affecting it on every cell level. What could I do? How could I heal this part of myself. Surely, I cannot go on being so angry and bitter. It goes against who I am, and who I aspire to be.

Like everything else, when you ask...the Universe comes a running. The universe will knock and knock at your door, the universe will ring the door bell and finally if nobody answers, the universe will break the door down. It's best to answer on the first knock.

The answer came in the form of a quote from Sonia Choquette: "Resentments and old angers keep you from tuning into your vibes. What must you forgive and release? It is time to take an honest look at this question don't you think?"

So I took the time and journaled my private thoughts, and my anger at certain people, situations and such. I feel better. I could have posted it all here, however I would be adding to the negativity of it all. I choose for it to stop with me, and that makes me happy. I am not in control of what other people do, how they act or how they choose to view others or things. I am in control of how I react; and that needs to be in accordance to my beliefs and my spirit.

What I do know is that the universe has its own way of shifting the balance over the course of time so that all things are ultimately fair. We can trust in this process and understand that karma actually exists. In time, there is balance.
We just have to forgive, move forth in our journey taking the lessons that are brought forth, turning the page.

So I'm releasing my anger. I'm letting go because it is not serving me. Whatever happens, happens. People make their choices and I must make mine according. The steam has been blown-off, the shift to balance and happiness begins. This is what my kids, my hubby, my true family, my genuine friends and I deserve. The universe will balance everyone else in the end, so that I don't have to.

Ah....!
Kimmy

Week 17!

Kim: -1 lb

Tony: -1 lb


We are heading down...down in the right direction!

:>

Shifting Towards Balance

What is it to be perfectly balanced? Is there such a thing? Equilibrium of the body seems so simple, yet so complicated.

Yesterday, I took the advice of my in-laws (Debbie and Dino...thank you again), and ventured to meet a man named Bruce at Back in Balance. It was an enlightening moment of enlightening moments.

Here I was thinking, I was on the right track (which I am, in case you are wondering), and that I was pretty balanced with my mind, body, soul connection. However, the body scan told a different story. The body scan told the truth without rose coloured glasses.

In fact, I am very unbalanced (inside!). My metabolism is low (which I kind of clued in), I am dehydrated (6-8 glasses just isn't enough for my body), my digestive system is stressed, I have a mineral deficiency and an essential fatty acid deficiency. Whoa! What does this all mean?

For one, it means that even though I am steering my body in the right direction: eating right, drinking fluids and working-out. The inside, tells a different tale. At a cellular level, my body is attempting to cope with the change, however, years and years of mistreating it has created some imbalance, stress and deficiencies. Sitting there listening to the results, the only thing I could think of was: 'wow, my poor body...what have I done!?" It's as plain as English. You cannot deny the results, however you can make the further shift to improve your body's equilibrium.

Most importantly right now for me, I am significantly deficient in chromium.

"Chromium helps the body regulate metabolism, insulin and blood sugar levels. Chromium helps the body lose weight by stimulating enzymes that metabolize glucose for energy. It plays an important role in the liver synthesis of fatty acids (burns fat). Chromium helps the body's metabolism after the food is in the blood stream. Chromium helps the pancreas and other organs keep all of this in balance. This is why chromium is so very important to our bodies.
When our body is deficient in chromium, it takes twice as long for insulin to remove glucose from the blood. This slows down the whole sugar glucose process causing the whole body to become more reactive to every other thing that is happening within it. Chromium enhances insulin performance and glucose utilization. It also helps to carry proteins in the body. "

Dr. Lynn Braught, (2009) Why do we need Chromium? from http://www.staytuned.ws/articles/chromium.html

AHA! That explains so much. For years of being on metformin, progesterone, this hormone pill, and that one...just to see no change. I got off the meds a long time ago...and nothing worked for me. Not to mention, all that frustration at working-out, stepping on the scale and seeing the needle just jiggle a millimetre. Just looking at a chocolate bar and gaining weight. No wonder. Yesterday, something clicked. The lightbulb went off, and it struck me to my core.

So I'm on supplements, and crossing my fingers. Further, this is day 2 of the supplements, and I can already feel the positive shift. In addition, my diet-nutrition is right on. I am dairy sensitive (as I suspected) and will have to make an effort to stay away from dairy. No soy either. The almond breeze as recommended by Rob is perfect.

There are many other issues/tendencies that were mentioned and I'll blogg and inform as I go. The next few weeks will tell the tale of the chromium deficiency.

As for everything else, I'm awakened from my turkey coma. Back on track and looking forward to a new balanced me.

Take care of yourself because balance is everything!

Kimmy

Turkey Blues

Today, my plan was to blog about how am now feeling; twenty pounds lighter, and more active.

However, thanks to my whirlwind of a week-end, I ended up being awake all last night...sick to my stomach. Serves me right. I always promised myself that this blog would be the raw truth. As I've posted before, serves nobody including myself if I blog half-truths, and lies. Besides, I know fully more than anyone about liars, and scammers they are my pet peeves. We won't go there. Being truthful to myself and everyone is part of this wondrous journey. Life is not all perfect moments...and to share this truth with you all, makes my journey all worthwhile.

Anyhow, here is my list of what I ate this week-end....blah...I'm sick just typing it. (Oh...and Rob...if you are reading this; stop reading now! )

Saturday

• coffee
• banana
• roasted chicken
• salade
• italian wedding soup
• fried zuccini
• veal marsala
• whole wheat linguini alfredo
• 2 glasses white wine
• cafe latte
• tiramisu

Sunday

• fibre one cereal
• coffee
• rice
• assorted cold canapes & hors d'oeuvres
• french cut lamb chops
• bruschetta
• olive bread ( lot's of it!)
• prosciutto ribbon with melon
• buffalo mozzarella and tomato trio
• italian cured delicacies
• fazzoletti fiorentina with ricotta and spinach in rose sauce
• casalinga with veal and beef in tomato sauce
• baby green salad with parmesean crisp
• Chateaubriand, duchess potatoes and carrots
• lindor chocolates
• champagne
• red wine
• cranberry vodka with a splash of orange juice
• cannoli, cannoli and more cannoli
• italian and french pastries

Monday

• Fibre one cereal with almond breeze milk (off to a great start!)
• coffee
• white rice
• turkey (lot's)
• mashed potatoes (lot's)
• gravy
• stuffing
• basmati rice
• strawberry cheesecake
• strawberry cheesecake

I am stuffed! Reading through this list...no wonder I am sick! Talk about shocking your body! This is how I felt all the time, stuffed, drained and sick. My body is working overtime to digest all this extra calorie food. I am sluggish. I am running a fever, and thinking I may have the flu; I'm only fooling myself.

I'm looking forward to being well again to go to the gym, and get back that wonderful energy of last week. Amazing what a three day binge can do! Eh?! Last week, I treated myself to a manicure, pedicure and a new hair cut. I felt so great in those 'new' jeans. I started to feel like my beautiful self again. I'm still on the wagon, even if I took a little detour. I've always said; "part of the journey is falling off and getting back on again".

I want to thank all my fellow bloggers for their love and support both public and private. Joania! You are amazing girl...I'm honoured to be in your company! 266...I love your blog and look forward to reading more about your journey too!

Lastly, the other night Tony looked at me and said: "wow, you are so beautiful...you glow!" That makes the journey so worthwhile! :>

Sometimes in life, we need to take a detour just to appreciate the path we are meant to take.

Take care of yourself, and be well!

Kimmy

Gratitude on Thanksgiving

I am so blessed, and for that I am
great full (grateful)!



Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!

Whew! Is it Tuesday Yet?

So much to be thankful, and grateful for. It's been a whirlwind of a week-end. Nonetheless, I really feel amazing with my 20 lb loss. I feel so alive and rejuvinated again. I know I still have more to lose (60 lbs to go). But, I'm feeling like I've turned things around. I will blog about this tomorrow.

Saturday, I had lunch with a girlfriend of mine (in those skinnier size 14 jeans that had been in my closet with the tags for five years!), and I made some good choices. Dinner was a different story. Tony and I headed out to Fratelli's (one of my favourite restaurants besides Mamma Teresa's) We had wine, to celebrate our time together; cheers! Then it was all down hill from there. I will focus, however on the good choices. I chose not to have any bread. I went with whole wheat pasta instead of regular pasta with my fettuccine Alfredo and veal Marsala. Tony and I shared a tiramisu with our latte.

Sunday, we attended a royal Italian baptism (photos). We literally ate from 4 pm until 10 pm. It was delicious. Let's just say, I am stuffed with cannoli!
Today, I'm making my boys, turkey with all the trimmings, my famous homemade Caesar salad and strawberry cheesecake.


Thanksgiving!

I love Thanksgiving! It's one of my favourite holidays. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful everyday. Nonetheless, I love to reflect on this day, say a prayer to the heaven's and being truly grateful for all that I am graced with in my life. It's been a roller coaster of a year. With both my babies having surgery (Carmy, it looks like will be having another surgery (hopefully that's the issue with his lump on his testicle), in the near future), my father-in-law's massive heart attack and long road to recovery. In addition, having my hernia surgery and not being able to even get off the couch on Easter to make my family a decent Easter meal. We've come a long way...and for that I won't stop believing in the grace of life.

Today, I opened this blog to see that a fellow blogger Joania had given me an award. Wow! That made my day (and also gave me the kick to realize...ummm...tomorrow back to eating well, and working-out! :) ) Thank you, Joania! I am so appreciative of this award. If you want to be truly
inspired: http://joaniajourney.blogspot.com/.

Finally, if I could leave you on this beautiful Thanksgiving day with inspiration of my own. As I listen to "Don't Stop Believing" by Journey. Don't stop believing in yourself. Be the change you want to be. Eat well, be well, and take care of yourself. You are worthy of living your best life, and being your best. It's starts with you....now. Love yourself. Have gratitude and be kind.
You will love yourself more, and the world will love you back more in return.
May heaven shine down upon you, and guide you through the road ahead.

Thank you for reading my blog, and following my journey.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Week 16!!!!

Kim: - 1 lb

Tony: -2 lbs


N.B.:

I've hit a milestone!!! 20 lbs gone and only 10.1 pounds to onderland! In addition, I fit into a size 14 jean. I've had these brand new expensive jeans for over five years, they never fit. At one point, I had a six inch gap to reach the zipper. Yesterday, they slipped on like a glove!!

Dr.Oz, 100 lbs lost and the Plateau.

Great article by Dr. Oz. He explains in very simple terms, how your body loses the weight, what happens when you hit a 'Plateau' and what you have to do to get over that 'Plateau'.
Also, great inspiration from these twins who lost 100 or so pounds each.

(click on the link below to watch the video)

We Did IT!!!

If any of you have never signed up or done the CIBC Run for the Cure, I urge you to sign-up today! I have never experienced anything like it. I am so proud of my boys, my niece Gabriella and my nephews Luca and Nico. We did it!

I will be very honest, I am not a morning person. Realizing that we had to be at the run site for 7 ish on a Sunday morning was not my cup of tea. Moreover, trying to convince my boys that they too would have to be up by 6 am, was not going to be easy. However, they were great about the entire thing when I told them, 'they'd be getting up for their Nanna's".

My hubby lost both his Moms' to Breast Cancer. His biological Mom, Caterina, passed away when he was 8 years old. He lost his step-mom, Esterina, a few years ago. So he had to re-live this horrible disease twice in his lifetime, losing two wonderful women.

So we woke-up Sunday morning to fog and rain. However, all the rain in the world would not prevent us from doing what we had to do that day. Looking back, I'm so glad we did. We decided to take the bus to the run site (great idea by the way!)...so here we were standing at the station waiting for the bus, when suddenly out of nowhere people starting to join us, all in the CIBC Run for the Cure hope tees. Seems we weren't the only one's with this great idea. Anyhow, our true moment of the cause came when a young father showed up with his two children. Written on the back of the man's tee was: "I'm running for my wife", on the boy's: "I'm running for my Mom" and the little girl's said: "I'm running for my Mommy". Everyone sorta looked at each other, running for our own loved one's and causes, however we all felt the emotion of the moment. With tears strolling down my face, I looked proudly at my fourteen year old who also had read the shirts...and we all glanced at each other knowing that this was the reason we were all doing the run. You could hear a pin drop. Everyone had tears streaming down their face. The clouds broke and the sun began to shine down upon us.

The poignant moments would continue as we boarded the bus. Here we were on a public transportation bus loaded with everyone running for the cure that day. It was just a sea of white tees with the breast cancer ribbon etched with the words "hope, espoir". Unbelievable! Every stop, after stop the people were lined up going to the run for the cure. It was stirring, moving and emotional. To be a part of it all...was such an amazing feeling!

Once we arrived at the run site, the energy of the moment was contagious. The adrenaline was rushing through us all as we made our way to the start line.

Through the line we could see the names, the causes and the reasons why people had chosen to walk/run. It was incredibily powerful, words cannot describe it. One guy did a portage and carried his canoe the entire 5 K with his loved one's names etched on the canoe. We also seen many survivors, and many woman currently battling the disease. It was poignant moment after poignant moment. It was an honour to walk 5 km with my boys amoung these heroes.

Together, Ottawa raised 1.5 million dollars. It was a day I will never forget. When I arrived home, my hubby kissed me and thanked me for doing this for his moms', it was my honour. Next year he vouched to walk with us all. Together, as a family...we will support the cure for this disease that has touched so many lives.


To leave you all on a happy note, I will post a few conversations I had with Carmelo along our 5 k walk. Diodato, Gabriella ran ahead of us! Luca and Nico joined in, but they ran too. So it was Carmy and I the whole way. He held my hand (rather squeezed) tightly for dear life...afraid to lose me in the thousands of walkers.

Of course, it took about fifteen minutes for us to go through the start line, as there was so many people.

Carmy- "...wow...are we done yet?"

Me- " Look up..." as I'm pointing to the start sign..."we are at the starting line now."

Carmy- "YOU've got to be KIIIIIIIIIDING meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! How long is this walk anyhow?"

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Carmy- "OKAY! We've been walking for longer than 1 k...you said! It was to my school and back...I've now walked from my school back again ten times at LEAST!!!!!"

( We walked the 5 k...)

Oh...and upon seeing the men pulling the buggies...I guess in case someone is unable to finish.

Carmy- "hey...MOM>.>>>tell them I want a ride!"

Me- (trying to whisper) "Carmelooooo, those are for the people who are sick and cannot finish the walk"

Carmy- "EXAAAAAAAAACTLY!!! I AM SICK>>>I am finished...and I can't walk anymore...if he doesn't believe you...pull out five bucks and pay HIM!"

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Me- "Carmelo! I see the finish line"

Carmy- "Thank the LORD! I did it...I actually did it...okay...I'm doing this...I did it...yahoo for me...I did it."

Carmy- "hey MOM...can we do this every year?"

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Our family's CIBC Run For the Cure is tomorrow. Pictures to follow...and maybe I'll even 'run' into Joania, a fellow popular blogger, inspiration, also from Ottawa.

Go TEAM Pink Nocita!

Week 15!

Kim: - 1 lb

Tony: - o lb
I'm inching my way closer to ONEDERLAND. Eleven pounds to go!

Time to Tighten the Belt: a Meeting with our Trainer

Last night, Tony and I had a quick sit down with Rob (www.laganafitness.com) and we discussed a few things.
I spoke to Rob briefly about my frustrations with lack of weight loss compared to Tony. I know...I know...he's a man, he has more weight to lose blah, blah, blah. But, as my eight year old Carmelo would surely say if he was in my place; "come on fricken all ready!"

Here I am, eating my cereal with almond breeze, drinking one coffee a day with my stevia, making sure to drink all my water, having snacks, and eating my meals 4 hours apart and especially making sure not to eat before going to bed. I'm doing my cardio and adding in some yoga.

Tony is having his protein shake in the morning if I make it for him. Skipping lunch (that's right Rob! I'm outing him), having sweets at work, thanks to those sabotaging girls at work! Plus, only drinking a tad of water. NOT working-out. Having a crappy protein bar for "lunch". Plus, having a bowl of cereal at night with MILK!

The difference? Tony loses $@@@@ a zillion pounds....Kim? ...the scale decides to budge down a small notch!!! As Jillian would say on The Biggest Loser: "F@@@ing BULL@@T MAN!!!"

Okay, I'm finished venting. As Rob made something very clear to me (I heard ya Rob...loud and clear). I need to weight train! I repeat: I need to weight train!
As Rob explained (and I already knew this...but it selectively skipped my mind): Men naturally have more muscle, therefore when they eat right (apparently Tony is on the right track still) they lose weight faster and more efficiently. Woman are not as muscular, therefore MUST compensate by weight-training. Cardio is NOT enough. If I might add to Rob's thoughts on this, from a woman's perspective; woman are built to carry some fat and less muscle due to nature's way (pregnancy especially). That is why once a month when Auntie Rose pays her visit, we tend to gain a few pounds or not lose weight that week. It's the body's natural instinct to prepare in case of pregnancy.

I know I am 100% accountable for not doing my weight-training. After much reflection last night, I am one hundred percent committed to this weight loss journey. Rob has advised me to:
4x a week weight train
3x a week cardio (30 mins)
plus
yoga when possible.

I came up with a great solution. I brought up my mat, free weights, ball etc...from the cruddy basement (a bonus of having a brand new home) and placed them in the living room. Twenty or so minutes in the morning while my three year old has his breakfast is all it's going to take. I have no excuses other than I am the excuse. I have also added a new side page detailing my work-out calendar so that I can be held accountable for not working-out (feel free to kick me when I'm not keeping up!) It begins today!