A Little Update

I just wanted to update you on my journey.

I have been a very good girl! lol I've made the effort to train, do cardio and do yoga. It feels great to get some alone, me time! I have no excuses...zero.

My only complaint was that yesterday, I got a nail in my tire and had to take a pause. I was set to do my core circuit training, I love the Monday class because it really instills a tone for the week, however things don't always pan out that way...and frustration sets in quickly with me. I had a last minute meeting to attend with Carmelo's french teacher. In addition, the core class time got moved up a half hour, so there was no hope for me.

Sometimes, these tests really 'test' us. I came home after the meeting, when it really sunk that I wouldn't make the session, I was frustrated and angry. In fact, I went to bed angry...and I tossed and turned until about 3 a.m. At that point, I realized that being a busy mom and wife means that I won't always be able to follow my 'planned' schedule. What I need to do is to go with the flow, and promise myself that come the next day, I brush myself off and keep on my journey. I guess I'm so afraid that if I miss ONE day it means I've fallen off the wagon completely, and I don't want to go there ANYMORE!

I've also done some emotional, internal cleansing. That feels wonderful and so enlightening. As for now, I've realized that some things, and some people (especially the one's who purposely are negative, and hurtful), they don't matter. I must choose to refuse to engage in their "games" or choices. I am truly sensitive, and consider myself highly intuitive. I understand situations, people and such on a different level that I cannot always explain into words. However, it wears on me emotionally, psychologically, and spiritually. In turn, it shows on my body. I'm slowly realizing that I must focus on those who love and support me, everything else is just not worth the energy!

I'm moving on...and growing, hopefully as I shrink!

Have a great Tuesday!
Kimmy

Presenting our eight year old son Carmelo in his first violin recital. He's been playing about a year now, and has come a long way. The violin is an extremely difficult instrument to play. We are so very proud of him, that we just had to share!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4RrMJ-yqHSU

My newest AHA moment....



Only one thing separates fat or fit and that is the letter

• I am strong


• I am worthy


• I am loved


• I am beautiful


• I am deserving


• I am valued


• I am healthy


• I am blessed


• I am


• I can


• I will

F.I.T!

The Power of Change!

Who am I? Is the question that comes to mind as I sit here. What purpose does this transformation serve? What is the benefit? Well, I can tell you that who I am now is not who I was 3 years ago or even last year. Along with the world changing, so am I. Looking deep within me has prompted a lot of change in and around me and is becoming more and more apparent. The life that I used to lead was not bad, just empty. There was no purpose, besides the normal things of being a wonderful wife and loving mother. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love and adore those jobs, but what was it that I wanted to do, what was my destiny? How can I serve and help people enrich their lives? And in turn, that is what would provide the enrichment that I needed on this earth.
Change is not bad or optional, it just is. Staying stagnant will not provide the growth internally and externally. As the saying goes, you should not go by the same philosophies at 40 as you did at 20. There is so much more to life than that. On this self-development path, there have been ups and downs as new thought patterns emerged and different perspectives and outlooks showed themselves. I can attain that not everyone will understand what is going on. Conquering change and letting it flow into your life has such a positive impact. Getting past the "old" story and letting go of what is not aligning with my purpose and passion, changing my mindset to grab a hold of all the knowledge available to increase my self-worth, competency and to know that I am deserving of a full life, is a process, but it was and is one that inspires and contributes to letting old habits, beliefs and patterns that serve no more purpose to fall away.
When I ponder the questions that I asked at the beginning, as to who am I?...the answer to that is a person of growth and change. A person who accepts life and all its excitement and challenges. What is the purpose and benefit of this transformation? More than you can imagine... Having a life of purpose, being able to grow and change and feel true inspiration, happiness and passion. That is what makes this journey worthwhile.
Change is not something to be feared. It is a beautiful experience and it will happen. Scary at times, but with being able to push past that fear that everything must remain the same, and to set out on a journey of your own self discovery can be threatening to some. By thinking of yourself, you set it in motion that you are worth finding and exploring. Finding the "thing(s)" that gets you motivated to do what you do and to have the positive focus on your life and benefit to others, not only gives you a more fulfilled life but strengthens you as a whole. The people around you will need to love you for you and accept all the good that has transpired within and around you. Mapping out the life that you desire and taking all the necessary steps helps you take action and responsibility for you. Only you can make those changes, nobody else.
What are you doing to change your life? Are you living the authentic, passion-filled, happy life that you've imagined you'd have? What is holding you back? What step can you do today to head in the direction of your goals and dreams? Take back your power and reclaim your life!

~~~~~~Find YOUR Answers....................................
..........................................................Achieve Balance.............

Reclaim YOUR Life!~~~~~~~~~~~~

Cheers,
Tania Boutin

Reclaim Your Life Coach & Motivational Teacherwww.transformation-coaching.com

No Excuses...Really!

I've been working my butt-off, well not really because apparently: it's still there!

The past two weeks, I have had no excuses to work-out. Really! My father-in-law had a full-time Nanny living with him, to help with his recovery from him massive coronary. Every winter, he ventures off to Florida. He has been doing so for the last fifteen years. To change that...would be devastating. However, being as the young woman had only been in Canada for less than a year, her visa application to visit the U.S. was denied. My father-in-law chose to leave anyway.

So for the first month, she stayed with my brother-in-law's family. Last week, she came to our house. At first, I will admit...I wasn't crazy about the whole idea. I'm the type of person who loves, LOVES her time alone. I spent most of my childhood growing-up alone, so that is a way of life for me. Besides, my home is already always coming and going with people. So I cherish the quiet time.

They say "blessings come in all sorts of disguises". I have to say that I was very wrong and 'crazy'. I mean, who wouldn't want a Nanny in their home, helping them?! With someone POWER CLEANING my home, and mending to my children (however, that task I still do mostly myself), I really had no excuses. I decided that if there was ever a time to get back in a routine of working-out...now was it. If I couldn't motivate myself to train, exercise now...I never will.

In addition, I read an article by Oprah (love her wisdom) that truly resonated with me. Oprah was talking about her goals to herself last year, to work-out more and eat better. She affirms that she 'hates' working-out. Who doesn't? Anyhow, she realized that by calling it "working-out", it was actually putting a negative twist to exercise. She has now changed the way she views 'working-out' by calling it: "honoring her body". So true!

I'm happy to report that I've stayed true to myself. I've trained and honoured my body a lot these past two weeks. I've even ran on the treadmill in the morning instead of going back to bed! The result? I feel amazing....again! I've lost three (3) pounds.
I'm counting down to my goal: February 22.

The universe has offered me a gift, that I really can't pass up and must take full advantage of.

I'm off to honour my body and myself...

Have a great day everyone!
xox

Kimmy

Beautiful Blogger

So much to catch-up on, I hope I don't bore you blabbing. More importantly, this all seems so mundane knowing what is happening in Haiti. Nonetheless, I feel like I have abandoned my blogging. I wanted to come back, and let you know how everything is going.




First off, I had another taste of "I'm overweight...great what will they think?" reality. I hate this! A few months ago, I re-connected via facebook (Love that!) with an old highschool friend. Hopefully, he is NOT reading my blog...


Anyhow, I had a crush on him in highschool, but I stayed away because he had started hanging around with the wrong crowd. He was always such a great guy...a real sweetheart. I had high morale expectations for myself back then...and the crowd he was hanging out with, without being to judgemental was not the direction I wished my life to go in...lol (yeah...then I ended up with an italian ;>)


Fast forward 18 years (yikes), this guy is still handsome (hot) as ever, and seems to have really straightened out his life. So proud of him! I mean, if you really knew where we came from, and how life can be quite difficult at times, you'd understand. Sometimes, when I look back at photos (via facebook) or actually go back home, I find people haven't changed. They still do what they did 20 years ago. I don't know if it's like that for everyone else, but in our small town...it is. I don't want to judge, and it's really hard not to, however there is more to life than sitting in a garage, getting stoned and drunk every night. Seriously, the only long lasting business that has stood the test of time: The Beer Store and LCBO. That is sad.


To see this guy, leave the north and COMPLETELY change his life and be VERY successful with it, is amazing. We've chatted via facebook and facebook messenger. It is really great to re-connect like that. So, he sent me a message saying he was coming to Ottawa for a quick trip and maybe we could connect. PANIC!


I have posted a few pictures of myself on facebook...but nothing could prepare anyone. The last time this guy saw me...I was thin, young and cute (:. Now, the way I see myself...besides cute, funny and nice...is not good. The torture we put ourselves through...eh?! I can't believe it. Anyone, who has been or is overweight will understand this.


However, it goes way deeper than seeing an old handsome friend again after 15+ years. It's more the fact, that my body is not aligned with the true me that resides inside. At this point, it's not easy to say: "here I am...a little fluffier than you remember!" I've missed so many opportunities, events, vacations etc...because of my size and weight. I have come to realize that it's time to stop writing about it, and start taking action! I need to be the change I know I am inside. Somehow, someway we all have to, just in our own different way. For me, I can get so frustrated, and emotional about it all...and it is easy to go back to the old Kimmy, the one who is the emotional eater. Therefore, I wondered if I was doing this all for nothing...


Then I came on my blog to write about, and saw that I received "The Beautiful Blogger award"! Wow!!! I was blown away. Thank you Kimberley. What perfect timing. I must continue my journey, not give-up or give in. I need to be happy with myself, and continue to improve on who I am on the outside as well as the inside. It is something we all look to achieve. In addition, maybe my friend was right when she said that...an old friend will always see the true Kimmy...beautiful and sweet always. Beautiful blogger award...so grateful!


This incidence just made me want to work harder than ever. This year is a big year event wise...

1. A high school reunion
   


2. My 10 yr wedding anniversary
   

I vow to myself that I won't be hiding, running away from these events...it is up to me not to let myself down again!

"When it comes to matters of the heart, people get better with age. As you grow and become truly happy with who you are, you can then be happy with those around you." - Rachel Roy, as read in the Oprah Magazine (February, 2010)

I'm thrilled to have received this 'Beautiful Blogger' award, I now have to list seven other Beautiful Bloggers and list seven facts about myself that you don't already know. Then I am to pass it on to seven other Beautiful Bloggers.

7 Facts About Myself That You Don't Already Know

1. 
   
   
   Growing-up, I was a huge fan of Wayne Gretzky #99. I loved how he was so great at hockey, he was genuine and had integrity. I cried the day he got married! (lol)



2. 
   
   
   I am intuitive/ psychic (my close friends know this...as over the years my predictions for them have come true). Sometimes, I will have a vision, a dream or hear something in my head/heart...and it comes true.



3. 
   
   
   I can read people's energy and aura's. I don't see aura, I feel it...it's very strange to explain.


4. 
   
   I was my graduating highschool valedictorian.


5. 
   
   I love to sing, however I am horrible (and I know it, but a happy heart sings no matter what! :>)


6. 
   
   I love to read.


7. I have a huge celebrity crush on Kiefer Sutherland (Jack Bauer 24).
   

To the beautiful bloggers, I pass the award onto: Stefania, Tania, Joania, Susan, Sandy, Denise and Counting Girl. However, if I could pass it on to everyone who's blogs I have read...I would. I would also pass it on to all my fellow reader's who follow my crazy tales!

Sending my prayers, love, light and a zillion angels to the people of Haiti.

We are all one. When someone hurts, we all hurt. Let us get through this together.