I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!

Hello everyone!

I'm back! I've received many inquiries about my whereabouts. I appologize profoundly. So much to catch up on...so take a deep breath and I will try not to babble.

Firstly, I FINALLY have had my hernia surgery. My hernia became unbearable in the last month. My recovery has been tough too. I've had three c-sections, and an ectopic rupture....nothing like this! Last of my complaints; lying on your back, not being able to move and seeing your house get totalled is no fun! I'm beginning to think that I'm a control freak, and that everything does not always have to be perfect. Still, can someone please pick-up that sippy cup that's been on the floor for three days??

In the midst of all this, my father-in-law suffered a major heart attack. Had surgery and his recovery was long and rough. Plus, we had our son Carmelo's condition as well. My hubby who doesn't do well with any situation, is in complete breakdown mode.

Carmelo's surgery was due three days after mine. He was going to be kept over-night,or a few days at the hospital. After dragging myself to the hospital with Tony in order to be there for Carmelo, we waited in pre-op for five hours. Carmelo was a wreck! Surgery ended up being cancelled due to an emergency. The positive twist is that everything happens for a reason. I was in no shape to take care of Carmelo and I would of had to stay with him during his hospital stay. So come surgery day for him, I'll be ready to be his nurse/mommy!

So I haven't written in three months or so. I fell off the wagon. I fell off the wagon, rolled down the hill, and ran the other way! I became so angry and frustrated. Being in the groove of things, and then having to stop just when you are at that sweet spot 'sucks'. That's what Jillian Michaels said on The Biggest Loser this week, and she is totally right. It sucked!

So I had a huge AHA moment! (God, I love those!) This week on The Biggest Loser, Laura who had struggled from the beginning of the show finally hit her 'sweet' spot. She finally got to a place where she realized she could change her life for the better. She was losing weight and was at the 'sweet' spot as Jillian puts it.
Unfortunately, life took a twisted turn for her. She suffered a fracture in her hip and would be unable to work-out. This is a major set-back for anyone. She was voted off this week. Watching Laura be carried away by her team mates was heart breaking! Even Jillian cried saying this was one of the worst moments of Biggest Loser history.

How I can relate to Laura! To add more to the irony of it all, Laura and I were at the same weight when our set-backs occured. Only thing is, Laura was able to maintain her weight. I on the other hand....failed my test!

I'm not going to go down the road of being hard on myself. I know I'm a great person ( :>), and I also know that life is too short for being angry all day long.
There is more to being beautiful than wearing a size 2! Beauty is a reflection of your inner self. It's the sparkle in your smile and the kindness of your heart. The secret is to take better care of yourself so that you don't have a grey cloud hanging over your brilliant energy to mask it all up.

A dear friend of mine was fatally killed on the week-end. She was truly an earth angel. She changed so many lives, simply by being present with love. What a gift! Cheers to you Liane!

Life is short. Take the lesson and turn the page.
That's okay! I am here now! I'm back. Although, as things stand...I don't know if I'll ever be able to do an ab crunch again!!!!!!! I miss going to the gym terribly. I miss eating right and feeling good about myself.

Today is a new day! I can now get off the couch and walk. The sun is shining. Spring has sprung...and my road to recovery is here!

Kimmy is back!
xox