Each and everyone of us is responsible for the creation of our own lives. Our thoughts, our words, our actions or lack there of controls how our lives unfold. We are the masters of our destiny. The choice is ours as to how our stories unfold.
Every choice you make has a consequence. To every reaction there is a re-action. Even a thought is an energy and can trigger many different scenarios for the road ahead. The choice is ours for example, whether to be happy, positive, grateful, kind etc...or not in every moment we experience. In every breath we take, we have the choice to live in the moment, be aware or not. With every emotion we feel, we have choice to deal with or discard. With every event, encounter or daily moment, we have choices. With everything we experience, we have choice. From the moment you first wake-up in the morning until the last aware moment before drifting off to sleep, you are in control of the choices.
For me, a healthy lifestyle is no different to this law. My choices have gotten me to where I am today. My lack of proper choices have built up to my current situation. It wasn't by choosing one chocolate bar that I got to be this way. Rather it was by making a pile of improper choices that got me to this point. I chose to be this way. I chose to be unhealthy and overweight. I chose to be sad, depressed over action. I chose therefore my situation is the result of those choices, and nobody else is responsible but me.
In turn, if there is to be any change, it must come from my choices. I must choose healthy over unhealthy. I must choose to love myself rather than the high of the moment that an unhealthy choice makes. I must choose well, for every choice small or big has a consequence. I must choose to take better care of myself. I must choose well.
If something is not working in your life, or you are unhappy, perhaps it's time to change. What needs to change? What can you do to make that transformation happen?
The power to transform lies within each and everyone of us. By seeing that transformation and making choices towards that goal, we are one step closer towards the end result. The key to unleashing that journey is choice, everyday choices.
Choose well and see the transformation begin!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Back on the Wagon (Again!)
I've attached a photo taken of me and my son Carmelo on the week-end.
It was Carmelo's first communion/confirmation. Events like this (for those of you who are not or have never been overweight) are not a welcomed fun event. Let me explain. We certainly have to make the best of it, and enjoy the presence of the moment.
Shopping for an outfit is a nightmare! Unlike everyone in normal sizes, overweight people have one or two stores to choose from. Moreover, these stores only carry 'formal/ or semi-formal' attire for Christmas. I guess fat people only come out at Christmas time...I don't know?! So just getting something appropriate to wear is a huge challenge.
Now, try having had hernia surgery on top of that, and trying to find something that will be loose and fitting enough not to cause pain, or discomfort! Lucky for me, I got lucky!!
I still went through the usual speach to myself:
-why do I do this to myself
-I'm so out of control
-remember the day when I could just walk into any store and buy something I loved, and that looked amazing on me?
I realized that I did it again. I hate falling off the wagon, and having to climb back on! Anyhow, in the photo...I look good...but I'm hiding! I'm hiding behind my son...how pathetic! lol
So now, I'm starting back. These are a few of the changes I'm doing. Since I cannot even work-out or walk to my car and back. A few changes is better than nothing.
-My morning coffee will now have splenda in it (why I went back to sugar is beyond me. I know that I was in that; oh well...I'm eating like crap anyhow phase. Do not get caught up like this! Every calorie counts. Every positive choice you make counts!
-WATER. I'm making sure to get all my water in.
-Late night snacking. Gone! No more late night snacking!
-Healthier choices. Throughout the day.
It's time to take back the control.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I'm BAAAAAAAAACK!
Hello everyone!
I'm back! I've received many inquiries about my whereabouts. I appologize profoundly. So much to catch up on...so take a deep breath and I will try not to babble.
Firstly, I FINALLY have had my hernia surgery. My hernia became unbearable in the last month. My recovery has been tough too. I've had three c-sections, and an ectopic rupture....nothing like this! Last of my complaints; lying on your back, not being able to move and seeing your house get totalled is no fun! I'm beginning to think that I'm a control freak, and that everything does not always have to be perfect. Still, can someone please pick-up that sippy cup that's been on the floor for three days??
In the midst of all this, my father-in-law suffered a major heart attack. Had surgery and his recovery was long and rough. Plus, we had our son Carmelo's condition as well. My hubby who doesn't do well with any situation, is in complete breakdown mode.
Carmelo's surgery was due three days after mine. He was going to be kept over-night,or a few days at the hospital. After dragging myself to the hospital with Tony in order to be there for Carmelo, we waited in pre-op for five hours. Carmelo was a wreck! Surgery ended up being cancelled due to an emergency. The positive twist is that everything happens for a reason. I was in no shape to take care of Carmelo and I would of had to stay with him during his hospital stay. So come surgery day for him, I'll be ready to be his nurse/mommy!
So I haven't written in three months or so. I fell off the wagon. I fell off the wagon, rolled down the hill, and ran the other way! I became so angry and frustrated. Being in the groove of things, and then having to stop just when you are at that sweet spot 'sucks'. That's what Jillian Michaels said on The Biggest Loser this week, and she is totally right. It sucked!
So I had a huge AHA moment! (God, I love those!) This week on The Biggest Loser, Laura who had struggled from the beginning of the show finally hit her 'sweet' spot. She finally got to a place where she realized she could change her life for the better. She was losing weight and was at the 'sweet' spot as Jillian puts it.
Unfortunately, life took a twisted turn for her. She suffered a fracture in her hip and would be unable to work-out. This is a major set-back for anyone. She was voted off this week. Watching Laura be carried away by her team mates was heart breaking! Even Jillian cried saying this was one of the worst moments of Biggest Loser history.
How I can relate to Laura! To add more to the irony of it all, Laura and I were at the same weight when our set-backs occured. Only thing is, Laura was able to maintain her weight. I on the other hand....failed my test!
I'm not going to go down the road of being hard on myself. I know I'm a great person ( :>), and I also know that life is too short for being angry all day long.
There is more to being beautiful than wearing a size 2! Beauty is a reflection of your inner self. It's the sparkle in your smile and the kindness of your heart. The secret is to take better care of yourself so that you don't have a grey cloud hanging over your brilliant energy to mask it all up.
A dear friend of mine was fatally killed on the week-end. She was truly an earth angel. She changed so many lives, simply by being present with love. What a gift! Cheers to you Liane!
Life is short. Take the lesson and turn the page.
That's okay! I am here now! I'm back. Although, as things stand...I don't know if I'll ever be able to do an ab crunch again!!!!!!! I miss going to the gym terribly. I miss eating right and feeling good about myself.
Today is a new day! I can now get off the couch and walk. The sun is shining. Spring has sprung...and my road to recovery is here!
Kimmy is back!
xox
I'm back! I've received many inquiries about my whereabouts. I appologize profoundly. So much to catch up on...so take a deep breath and I will try not to babble.
Firstly, I FINALLY have had my hernia surgery. My hernia became unbearable in the last month. My recovery has been tough too. I've had three c-sections, and an ectopic rupture....nothing like this! Last of my complaints; lying on your back, not being able to move and seeing your house get totalled is no fun! I'm beginning to think that I'm a control freak, and that everything does not always have to be perfect. Still, can someone please pick-up that sippy cup that's been on the floor for three days??
In the midst of all this, my father-in-law suffered a major heart attack. Had surgery and his recovery was long and rough. Plus, we had our son Carmelo's condition as well. My hubby who doesn't do well with any situation, is in complete breakdown mode.
Carmelo's surgery was due three days after mine. He was going to be kept over-night,or a few days at the hospital. After dragging myself to the hospital with Tony in order to be there for Carmelo, we waited in pre-op for five hours. Carmelo was a wreck! Surgery ended up being cancelled due to an emergency. The positive twist is that everything happens for a reason. I was in no shape to take care of Carmelo and I would of had to stay with him during his hospital stay. So come surgery day for him, I'll be ready to be his nurse/mommy!
So I haven't written in three months or so. I fell off the wagon. I fell off the wagon, rolled down the hill, and ran the other way! I became so angry and frustrated. Being in the groove of things, and then having to stop just when you are at that sweet spot 'sucks'. That's what Jillian Michaels said on The Biggest Loser this week, and she is totally right. It sucked!
So I had a huge AHA moment! (God, I love those!) This week on The Biggest Loser, Laura who had struggled from the beginning of the show finally hit her 'sweet' spot. She finally got to a place where she realized she could change her life for the better. She was losing weight and was at the 'sweet' spot as Jillian puts it.
Unfortunately, life took a twisted turn for her. She suffered a fracture in her hip and would be unable to work-out. This is a major set-back for anyone. She was voted off this week. Watching Laura be carried away by her team mates was heart breaking! Even Jillian cried saying this was one of the worst moments of Biggest Loser history.
How I can relate to Laura! To add more to the irony of it all, Laura and I were at the same weight when our set-backs occured. Only thing is, Laura was able to maintain her weight. I on the other hand....failed my test!
I'm not going to go down the road of being hard on myself. I know I'm a great person ( :>), and I also know that life is too short for being angry all day long.
There is more to being beautiful than wearing a size 2! Beauty is a reflection of your inner self. It's the sparkle in your smile and the kindness of your heart. The secret is to take better care of yourself so that you don't have a grey cloud hanging over your brilliant energy to mask it all up.
A dear friend of mine was fatally killed on the week-end. She was truly an earth angel. She changed so many lives, simply by being present with love. What a gift! Cheers to you Liane!
Life is short. Take the lesson and turn the page.
That's okay! I am here now! I'm back. Although, as things stand...I don't know if I'll ever be able to do an ab crunch again!!!!!!! I miss going to the gym terribly. I miss eating right and feeling good about myself.
Today is a new day! I can now get off the couch and walk. The sun is shining. Spring has sprung...and my road to recovery is here!
Kimmy is back!
xox
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